And the winner is…..

The End

The winner of “Best Horror” at the 2014 Limelight Film Awards was no other than our short film, The End.


It’s been a long time since I worked on this short film script and saw it go into production. It was very a very surreal experience sitting in the gorgeously decadent, art deco venue, The Troxy, in London’s east end watching a clip of our film played as the nominations were read out.

There was so much talent at the award ceremony, including of course my fellow film makers – Director and Producer, Raj Pathak, from We Are Heroes Films, cinematographer, Louis Vella  and special effects aficionado Nik Karma from N-FX. The two actresses also attended the ceremony; Shelley Draper (who provided an immensely compelling performance of the mother in the film) and Eva Nicholson who played her daughter. Director, Crash Taylor unfortunately couldn’t attend the event.

(My one regret is that we didn’t get pictures of the event – we all went up as a team to receive the award and the official photographs have never been released of all the winners. Note to the organisers – there’s a lot of PR each of the film awards winners would probably love to generate for the awards, so its a shame these haven’t been available!)

Of course for us this isn’t The End – but only the beginning of the end. With a feature length film script already written, a crew that’s raring to go all that’s left is to gather together more investment – I say ‘all that’s needed’ of course this is one of the trickiest elements of getting a film made. I’ve no doubt it will be another long wait…. but it will be worth it!




A girl interrupted….

It’s been a while, I know. I got interrupted. Life interrupted. Not only that, it made me face reality, which is never nice. That’s why I write fantasy.

The upshot is I had to increase my working hours; my paid for working hours, not the ones I spend bleeding onto the page and scratching letters in the blood. Now it’s all numbers, spreadsheets, policies and politics.

I’ve been sitting in bed at night, because they are the only free moments now available to me, thinking, ‘well I have about an hour, I could write something…’ and nothing comes. Nothing.

I feared my creativity had been sucked into a corporate void, I was being absorbed into the borg.

Then last night, I picked up an old script. It had been commented on by a guy called Erik Bork, who is, I understand, someone in Hollywood. I was supposed to have worked on it a while ago, but knowing the day of fiscal responsibility was looming I decided to use my last remaining days attempting, in vain, to finish my novel. I ignored the script. I re-read the comments and under “overall thoughts” it said:

‘this could definitely get real attention at festivals – and be compelling, emotional, entertaining and memorable’.

I dusted the thing off and began the re-write. Who knows if it’ll ever get made, who knows if it’ll ever get to a festival, but I should at least give it one more go. After all time is always running out.


My heart is still with my novel, but it’s better to write something and delete it later, than to write nothing at all and never know.

Here’s to carrying on no matter what.

Writing…tendencies, proclivities and bents

Do you consciously choose what and how you write or are you seemingly bound by your own personal predispositions?

I remember the moment I decided I was going to write a ‘book’, not a novel, a ‘book’. It was going to be a lighthearted, humorous, heart warming children’s story, full of magic and sentiment. And so I began… A few pages into my masterpiece the storyline took a sudden dark turn. I screwed it up and began again. This happened about ten times before I gave in and decided just to write whatever came – just get it all down and assess it later.

I still haven’t managed to write that children’s story, but I have made great progress with my fantasy novel. I also wrote a film-short which may or may not be made. The film script, though not fantasy, is dark and violent.

The cinematographer who expressed a strong interest in making this film also asked me to write a couple of other things: a heartwarming innocent love story between two pre-teens and a film using a hotel room and a model.  Again ‘heart warming’, ‘innocent’ and ‘love story’ failed to inspire, in the end I had to admit defeat. The ‘model in a hotel room’ completely stumped me. I mean, to start with, I felt I was possibly being asked to write something voyeuristic, especially given there was to be no dialogue – and remember we’re using a model, not an actress. The more I wrote, the more I felt not only was I pushing the boundaries of my own principles, I was also writing against the current of my own creativity. I eventually sent something over, with which I was mortally embarrassed.

In retrospect I should simply have said it was not my kind of thing. The problem when you’re a ‘struggling writer’ is to think you have to take on anything that comes your way. Certainly it’s a great idea to challenge yourself and perhaps, once you are more accomplished, you can turn your hand to more genres. However, it’s also true if a reader reads something of yours and loves it, he’s going to want to read more of the same, not something completely unfamiliar.

I had a discussion with a writer friend recently about this issue. I was worried a piece of writing I’d sent off to a course tutor wouldn’t be his ‘thing’ (having read some of his own work) and therefore he wouldn’t get it. She asked me if I only read and like fantasy novels – ‘of course not’, I replied, ‘I read all sorts of literature and can see merit in a great many styles of writing’, (yes I actually speak like that (not really)). She suggested it was perfectly likely, although the tutor may not write in a style similar to mine, he would still appreciate it. She also added that my kind of writing really appeals to her, but she simply cannot write in that style herself, it’s just not what comes out when she puts pen to paper.

We are all a delicate mixture of our experiences and our natures which is why, thankfully, there is so much diversity of writing out there. I’d love to know more about your writing voice. Is you writing voice very different from your everyday one or very similar? Do you feel you write more masculine or feminine biased pieces; does this contradict your own gender? Do you have that wonderful ability to write in many distinctly different styles or have you developed a very strong style of your own that comes through whatever you write?


PS I know the headline is a bit odd, but I love the word ‘bent’, it has so many different meanings; a cheeky little word.